Best Read Ever.

I just completed this book titled, Yakuza Moon, Memoirs of a Gangster's Daughter.

I don't regret buying this book. I've learnt so much. Her recounted events are thorough and her complete honesty is truly admirable. It painted a very accurate picture whilst reading this story.

Good that you can read it online, but better if you could own the book. Very nice cover and a beautiful lesson within.

http://books.google.com.sg/books?hl=en&id=jsSl8NR-XAgC&dq=yakuza+moon&printsec=frontcover&source=web&ots=wmY6_wjZe_&sig=OEimCvicDJBVLM7rSrS-1y7FHjM&sa=X&oi=book_result&resnum=1&ct=result#PPA8,M1

I can't find a picture of the reprinted cover for sale now at most mega bookstores in Singapore. :( But it's similar to this except that the background is black.

How Long It Takes.

Cherie's Birthday Steamboat Dinner
22nd Nov

My best girlfriend's 20th birthday surprise. 18th Nov.

Surprise!
I think this is a sweet picture of us :)
Blowing out the candles.
As you can see, we're eating the cake. Haha
Group shot.
Sorry, forgot to rotate. LOL.

Lyndan & I.

Didn't rotate as well. HAHAHA

Danting & Lyndan.
Eh how come I forgot to rotate ah?

Realisation.

I realised I like myself w long hair.
I'm really good at acting busy at work.
I am broke because I keep losing money.
But I'm happy still.
I realised I'm always misunderstood.
I do not have a guilty conscience.
I am always bothered by unimportant stuff.
And am blinded.
I realised I have a lot of great friends/people around me.
I am sure they are worth my attention/effort/time.
They don't judge me.
They love me for me.
I realised I club too much.
And I laugh too much.
I cry too much.
I fret over nothing.
And I realised it's time to stop.

Tsk. It's not worth it... anymore.
Am I right, Wilson?

Somethings.

Having been through very tough rides this year, I keep having inescapable thoughts about people, life, hardships & friendships. It's scary. As much as a positive/cheery person I am, suicidal thoughts, gory thoughts, scarily frightening thoughts pop into my head. I can't block them out, but I can distract myself. I'm freaking out.

How much do we have to go through to survive the hardship? Too many times in our lives, we go through misunderstandings, animosity & whatnot, but will there really come a time when we wake up from all of this and tell ourselves, "Is it really worth it?" It's going the same way and I am not gonna succumb to it because it's I who have developed into _____. I can't judge myself FOR myself for sure, but do you guys think I'm worthy?

I do not let go of people just because they went awry. I don't feel differently about people just cuz they steal/rob/hate/are ugly/forget what we had. I do not give up because I am loyal. I do not give up despite people being unthankful. But what have become of what you thought Was Before? People just don't get it, do they? They like to dig deep into underlying meanings when there isn't any at all. I do do that too. So do I harp on it, or do you think I should just become an unfeeling being?

Stand by me too, wouldn't all of you?

________

Moving on with the distractions in life,

Friday, coffee session with Xu & Derrick.
Then Zouk & Phuture with all the sexay babies! Thank you Arik, for getting me into Phuture. :)

Leslie & Derrick, Harie & Janice.

Outdated. Two Sundays ago, PS Cafe in town with the usual bitches. :)
Oh as you can see, I BROKE MY I/C! HAHAHAHAHA

with Jackvic & Donovan.

Dominic, Donovan, Jv & Titus.

Window-shopped, did a lil grocery shopping, met up with Rachael, Louis & Kevin for A minute (literally.) I watched Madagascar 2 with the boy on Saturday. Rather funny, but not that fantastic. Really predictable plot, but worth the watch. Are you comprehending? Haha!

Oh well I had a really good weekend :)
And now, it's back to work.

It's Wednesday already.

I haven't updated my blog for six whole days.
A lot have happened. Things good & bad.

Well in short, I just think there are lotsa self-centered & childish people around.

Worst of all, they are people whom you refer to as Friends.

I was at Dehui's birthday celebration last friday @ dbl o. Boy did I drink a lot. Got helluva drunk. Haha! But I managed to make my way home tho. I look absolutely horrible in other photos with Tosh & whoever cuz... well drunk photos are never pretty, are they?

With Jeremy & De Hui

Anyway, it's Zouk again tonight with lotsa sluts! ;)

Oh yes, I broke my I/C in half. By accident. HAHAHAHA

Very Stupid Post.

Oh my god I've been damn busy (with work + play + meet-ups etc) that I haven't touched my computer for almost 5 days. Been using the computer at work more than at home and now it feels weird typing on this keyboard...

Anyway, I was Eugene's partner (yet again.) for his Mess Initiation at freakin 4SIR off Old Lim Chu Kang Road last friday. It was rather dull. Food - boring. Performances - could've been better. Emcee - shitty. Venue + Mess location - too out of the way and too warm. If it weren't for the sake of our friendship, I wouldn't have gone. I was freakin exhausted at Michael's 23rd party after that.

I wasn't looking into the camera!
Too many cameras were whipped out luh, like paparrazi shots please. Haha. Okay whatever.
Happy Birthday, Michael!

Oh, and work's great. I mean.... colleagues are great. Work is just plain boring but hey, it's easy money, so why not? I amaze myself, really. The latest I've arrived at work is a mere
5 minutes later than reporting time. To think I'm late EVERY SINGLE DAY back in secondary school. Oh wait. That's 4 years ago already. I'm old and deluded. Hahahaha!

Alright I seriously need to get some sleep. I miss all of you, my sluts, my girls, my boys & all you sweet people out there. Xoxo!